I'm going to become a minimalist.
Selling all my junk in a garage sale.
for other people to buy. and then realize they don't need.
I'll keep my bed and my computer and my desk. The things I need.
I want to take down my posters.
Clean up this clutter.
Clean up my mind.

I am a messy person. My room mate and I had our first fight today. You know, the kind with yelling. I feel better now. I'm surprised it took 8 months for us to fight.
He's an OK guy, I'm just not good at sharing my space.

I am in love again. Yay. Yay for good feelings and good outings with friends, and yay for sex with real emotions.
Some people argue that once you have emotionless sex, you'll never have serious sex again. I think they are wrong. Although I don't believe in just casually sleeping with different people, I do think it's possible to have one kind of sex or the other. But sex and love together is an experience that can't be matched. Without a doubt.

My heart was just dead for a while. And reasonably so. It was exhausted.
But we're up and running again, my heart and I.

Love is a funny thing. I thought I'd only love once. I thought all attempts after that would be void. But I don't think so anymore. Sometimes I am worried I'll get too serious and run myself right back into disaster and heartbreak. Sometimes I am worried I will misjudge the person I am with and be blind/ignore the things that I really truly do not want in a partner. Sometimes I am afraid I just want someone to be with, and like most other girls my age, be consumed by the thought of "finding the one". Then be crushed and have to break another habit.

But there's no doubt I'm wiser now. And growing wiser still. So. We'll see what happens to me.

Sex without emotion is called "f*cking". Sex with emotion is called "making love". I am so happy that you are your heart and happy and running again. :) Being in love is so much fun!!
» KKama67 on 2008-04-01 02:31:18

wow. i'm bad in sharing my space too. i'm very territorial.
» renaye on 2008-04-02 10:31:01

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